i hate not talking, plain and simple
thought i was being silly, even considered making a blog post about the silliness of looking for an entry i am almost positive won't be there
and then there it was
not much, just a small note, 2 sentences.
it's enough for now, just to know that he's still out there, still thinking about the possibility of us.
I am sure I sound pretty emo in these entries, but i don't really care enough what anyone else thinks about them.
I just want to write what I'm thinking about during these weeks that we'll be apart, I want to have a record of this, for me ... and maybe for him if he wants it. But I want a place where I can see the things I'm thinking, where I can go back and see them, and see how my thoughts evolve over these weeks.
For a person like me, 5 weeks is a long time. Long enough for major changes in all aspects of my life, and I just want to make sure that this area is saved.
So yeah ... that's what this is.
It's for me, So I have a place to vent when I need it, and a place to work out my thoughts and my emotions in ways that I can't in others.
and I don't know why I feel the sudden need to explain myself, especially when there is probably only one other person besides myself reading these at the moment - but there you have it.